The Voice Inside Your Head Had a Beginning: Why So Many Adults Still Carry Old Wounds!

[00:00:01] And many adults are speaking to themselves internally in voices that were never originally their own. And one of the most emotional realizations a person can have is recognizing how much of their inner dialogue was quietly shaped long before they fully understood themselves.

[00:00:24] Perhaps you felt it before. That pressure inside yourself that never fully lets you relax. That voice telling you, you should be further ahead by now. You should already have this figured out. You should be handling everything better than this.

[00:00:45] And underneath all of it, there's often this quiet weight of guilt, pressure, or perhaps it's even shame. The feeling that one mistake suddenly makes you question your value.

[00:01:02] Or that, that exhausting fear of disappointing people whose emotional influence was never meant to outweigh the peace, unity, and priorities inside your own home. And for some people, that voice becomes so familiar, they no longer even realize how harsh it became.

[00:01:30] And often those patterns didn't suddenly appear in adulthood. They were formed slowly over time. In the emotional environments people adapted to as children. And because children are consistently building an internal understanding of themselves through experiences surrounding them, the tone around them,

[00:02:01] the way mistakes are responded to, the way love feels during difficult moments. And over time, those experiences quietly become part of the voice someone eventually carries within themselves later in life.

[00:02:21] And just within this community alone, I believe many adults have spent years trying to silence their inner criticism. But without ever realizing where that voice may have originally come from. And that's why this conversation matters so much. Because healing is not only about changing behavior.

[00:02:51] Sometimes it's about changing the voice someone has been living underneath for years. So settle in with us for a moment. Because I believe this conversation may bring clarity to places many people have quietly struggled to understand for a very long time. Let's go!

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[00:04:23] And over the past several episodes, we've been talking about emotional environments. How identity forms. How children quietly absorb the atmosphere around them. What's in your home. And today we're moving into something beautifully deep. The voice people carry inside their own minds every single day.

[00:04:52] Because many people outwardly, they appear capable, successful, strong, and internally carrying a voice that constantly pressures them, criticizes them, shames them. Let's just say exhausts them. And often they don't even realize how automatic that internal dialogue has become.

[00:05:23] We talk about this. Children absorb far more information growing up than we realize. But we know this now. They absorb emotional tone. They notice facial expressions. They're so good at it. The tension in a room. Whether mistakes are met with patience or frustration.

[00:05:54] Whether emotions feel welcomed or burdensome. And over time, that emotional atmosphere becomes internalized. A child repeatedly surrounded by reassurance, guidance, encouragement, and that emotional steadiness that they need. They often develop very differently. Very differently.

[00:06:23] Just because of their internal world than a child surrounded by criticism, unpredictability, shame, or impossible standards. Because eventually, eventually that external voice surrounding a child becomes part of the internal voice developing within them.

[00:06:49] Children naturally personalize repeated experiences. So when correction constantly feels harsh, a child may slowly begin believing that something must be wrong with me. Those types of thoughts.

[00:07:11] When affection feels tied to performance, they may begin believing my value depends on achievements alone. And then there's when mistakes repeatedly create shame. Children often begin fearing failure emotionally long before adulthood ever arrives.

[00:07:38] And over time, those beliefs quietly follow people into relationships. Into their careers, into work, to their leadership, into their holy covenant, into parenting. It becomes identity later in life.

[00:08:01] And many underestimate how exhausting it is to live underneath a constantly critical internal voice. The kind of voice that never fully lets someone rest emotionally. There's a voice whispering, you're behind. You're failing.

[00:08:30] You should be doing more. You disappointed people. And sometimes people become so accustomed to that inner dialogue, they no longer even recognize how heavy it has become.

[00:08:46] I remember someone in this community once saying, I realized I speak to myself more harshly than I would ever speak to my own child. And I think that realization stopped many people emotionally. It hit them.

[00:09:10] Because often the way people speak to themselves internally would break their heart if they heard someone speaking that way to the people they love the most. It's true. And most of the time, these patterns weren't created because someone intentionally wanted to cause harm. I hope not anyway. Right?

[00:09:37] We can only hope for the good of all. Many people were simply repeating emotional patterns they experienced themselves. Oh, and I remember another person in our community sharing something else that felt deeply revealing to those listening.

[00:10:02] They realized they had spent years pursuing a path that no longer truly fit who they were becoming, but it had become deeply connected to their family's identity, to their pride, their parents' pride, their parents' sense of security and stability, the people around them, their sense of security and stability.

[00:10:31] It was their identity. To the point where walking away almost felt like disappointing everyone around them. And I think moments like that become incredibly emotional for people.

[00:10:49] Because sometimes what appears successful externally, not internally, externally, what looks successful, right? That image is actually someone quietly carrying enormous internal pressure. The pressure to keep being who everyone else feels comfortable with.

[00:11:18] I'm going to say it again, who everyone else feels comfortable with. Who everyone else celebrates that identity of that person. The person who keeps the family or friends or surroundings emotionally stable.

[00:11:39] And over time, people can slowly lose connection with themselves trying to remain who others needed them to be. Either for financial reward, identity, pride, all the things that you want to just run the other direction from. Many people grew up inside environments where rest, it never fully felt earned.

[00:12:10] Where pressure felt more familiar. It felt more familiar than being at peace in your soul and who you were meant to be. And you get used to that pressure. And you get used to that pressure. Where achievement was noticed very quickly. It was noticed quickly, right? You caught the pat on the back.

[00:12:37] Because you were achieving, you're bringing in whatever it was, money, the status. But emotional needs. Now those were overlooked. And this is why awareness matters so much. Because once people begin recognizing that inner voice, they can begin changing it. It could stop today. You could change it.

[00:13:02] And this becomes especially important in achievement driven environments. Because some children, they slowly begin feeling most valued when they are succeeding. When they perform well. When they make people proud.

[00:13:22] And sometimes, without fully realizing it, parents can begin placing emotional weight onto a child's success in ways that were never meant for that child to carry. The pressure to achieve, to perform, to become the source of pride, validation, or emotional security for the family.

[00:13:49] And while that pressure may come from love, fear, scarcity, or unhealed expectations, it can quietly teach a child that their value is tied more to what they accomplish. Ouch. Than who they are. And later in life, that can quietly create adults who struggle to rest.

[00:14:17] Who carry guilt when they slow down. And who feel enormous pressure around disappointing people. People that aren't even in their holy covenant. Right? And you shouldn't even be, you shouldn't even be, you know, having that pressure with you from your spouse. You should be building together. You should be building together. I'm just saying, they haven't even let it go.

[00:14:44] And listen, it's not because they are, they are incapable. But I feel it's more because their nervous system learned approval and worth were emotionally connected.

[00:14:59] And because of that, many people move through relationships constantly bracing for disappointment and criticism. What about rejection or, or disapproval? Even when the people around them are not actually attacking them.

[00:15:23] They think they're getting attacked because sometimes old emotional wounds quietly shape the way present day conversations are interpreted. And without awareness, people can begin reacting to current relationships through pain that was formed long before those relationships ever existed.

[00:15:49] That's why it's good to identify it now. So we can stop that. Right? Yes. Yes. And sometimes people become so focused on being accepted that they slowly disconnect from who they actually are. You know, it's so sad.

[00:16:18] It's so sad because they become who feel safe to everyone else. Who feels impressive. Who feels understandable. Perhaps. Perhaps. It's. While quietly losing connection with the version of themselves, God may have been calling them toward all along.

[00:16:48] The version of themselves that God called them to be. But they couldn't see it because of all the distractions of the people around them wanting to be who they needed them to be. Because families and environments can quietly shape who people believe they are allowed to become.

[00:17:13] And while guidance and wisdom absolutely matter, there's also something deeply about allowing people the freedom to become who God uniquely created them to be. But sometimes people are forcing us to look backwards at who we used to be because that was comfortable for them, not us. That's not our calling. That's not who we're meant to be anymore.

[00:17:44] Sometimes the reason people feel disconnected internally, it's not because they're failing. It's not because they failed. But because they abandoned parts of who they were truly in order to stay accepted by everyone else. People that didn't even matter, not even their holy covenant.

[00:18:08] Again, not that we should be trying to impress our spouse, right? We're building together. We're leaving a legacy together. Especially we see this in this community. But dang, imagine abandoning the parts of who we were truly called to be, who God called us to be, just to stay accepted by everyone else.

[00:18:37] The ones that it won't even matter. It won't even matter. And imagine looking back to that at the end of your life and having that aha moment, that realization. I was so busy trying to please and trying to be the person that made everybody else happy. I missed my calling. I missed who God called me to be. I missed my mission.

[00:19:07] And then there's this. Sometimes people hear themselves speaking with a level of harshness toward the people they love the most that they would never use towards strangers. And it's not necessarily that they are cruel.

[00:19:27] But it could quite possibly be because of stress or emotional overload, unresolved wounds. And it could even be learned communication patterns that will often surface most visibly inside emotionally familiar environments.

[00:19:56] That's a hard one because we are called to be the kindest to our spouse. That's how we're supposed to lead them, the way Jesus would leave us with love and kindness. And sometimes those emotionally familiar environments from childhood comes out in your marriage.

[00:20:21] And for many people, that realization becomes an invitation towards growth. When they see it, when they understand it, when they realize what's going on. It's a step towards healing.

[00:20:44] Toward learning how to slow down and lead conversations with greater gentleness. Switch. Switch. We can change today. We can use wisdom. We can use self-awareness. Because emotionally healthy leadership begins with what? Self-awareness first.

[00:21:15] This conversation becomes incredibly powerful through a biblical lens too. Scripture consistently reminds us that words carry power. My son has a speech about this. The power of words. I'm never going to forget this ever in my whole entire life.

[00:21:44] God spoke to me in the hardest days of my life through my baby boy and my little girl. But my little girl, she couldn't. She could connect with me. She was a newborn when this was all happening. But during the hardest time of my life, I was given the worst. The doctors had their opinion of what was going to happen. God had other plans. And my son, he told me that. This is God's plan for your life.

[00:22:13] You are going to do amazing. You are going to get through this. Every positive thing that he could say, he was pouring that into me. And now he has a speech about the power of words. And we understand that in our home. And there's a part of what I'm about to share with you in his speech. Okay.

[00:22:42] In the book of Proverbs, chapter 18, verse 21, scripture says, Death and life are in the power of the tongue. It is true, friends. It is true. Not once, not once did we say anything, any of the opinions that any of the, you know, doctors or specialists, headset.

[00:23:12] That was never repeated. And you just keep speaking power into any situation that you're going through. Sometimes my husband tries to state facts and I just don't say that. Stop saying that. Find another way. I'll make him say it. I will make him say it. Right?

[00:23:37] Or, or we're having a conversation and my, you could hear my, and this is the thing. Children are listening from the other room. You could hear him say, actually, and then he'll correct the negative sentence or word that was being said. Oh dear.

[00:23:58] I, I, I really, truly believe many people underestimate how deeply words shape identity over time. Especially words repeated consistently. Words don't only affect emotions temporarily. They often shape belief. Your confidence.

[00:24:28] Be careful, ladies. Beautiful ladies listening. Be careful. Little eyes are watching us all day long. Whew. I just got goosebumps. Because I'm deeply aware. I'm deeply aware of the things that I say. When I look at myself in the mirror.

[00:24:58] Deeply aware. I have a little girl. I have a little boy. I have a baby girl, baby boy. They will always be my babies. They're always watching me. Look in the mirror today. When this podcast is done, tell yourself how beautiful, how beautiful you are. How powerful you are.

[00:25:25] If you have scars, those are beautiful. You know what they did for you? For you. I know my scars saved my life. They show how powerful I am. Japanese tradition. They don't hide the scar. Right? They have a broken... Let's say it's broken china. It's something beautiful, beautiful dish. Broken.

[00:25:55] They cast it in gold. The scars. The broken areas. Pure gold. Pure gold. And it turns out to be beautiful art. The most beautiful art you've ever seen. That's how we speak. That's how we speak. Especially. Especially when we have children.

[00:26:26] Being confident in who God created us to be. The beauty in every detail. Every single tiny detail. In our identity. In our internal dialogue. We must be so careful. We were fearfully and wonderfully made. We have royal blood. All the things. It's in the Bible. If you have a hiccup and you can't think of anything, start reading the book. It's in there.

[00:26:55] It tells you exactly who you are. You're royal. You are a queen. You are a king. Our children. Our princesses and princes. They have royal blood. Royal blood. Right? Fearfully, wonderfully made. Beautiful. That's who you are. Remember that. Okay? Not even after Thanksgiving. Beautiful. Look. Look. There's more of me to love. Of course. Of course.

[00:27:21] And that's the thing we do talk about is that the devil has a meal plan, right? And God has a meal plan. So we have to be very careful of what we do put in our body. But we are beautiful. That's a whole different subject. But there's toxic things that we could put in our body. And that's not nice. And there is healing things. Truly healing things that we could put in our body.

[00:27:50] And that is a responsibility on our behalf. It is self-discipline. All the things that we need to learn, especially if we have little eyes, right? If we're building a baby, the most nutrients-dense things. Oh, my mom was so amazing. Did you have your lamb? Did you? Did you? We're building babies. We're building babies. Everything healthy. Everything good.

[00:28:20] Oh. So anyway. Back to the internal dialogue, right? It's why emotionally healthy leadership inside a home matters so much. And not just psychologically. Spiritually. That's important. It's all passed down. Everything is passed down.

[00:28:48] And perhaps one of the most hopeful parts of this conversation is realizing that the voice inside your head may have been... I mean, maybe it was shaped by your past. But it does not have to keep shaping your future. Okay? And this is where healing becomes so meaningful.

[00:29:14] Because awareness is not only about understanding what shaped us. It's about deciding what no longer gets passed forward for obvious reasons, right, parents? The way we speak to ourselves. The way we respond to mistakes.

[00:29:41] Again, I remember a moment when it was late at night. My mom used to work. My mother, she would work all day in the store. She would come home. We didn't own a microwave. I don't own a microwave. I learned that because of my mom. She didn't feel like it was healthy. And now we know that it destroys all the nutrients and foods and all the... My husband has a fun fact. I've never made him anything in a microwave.

[00:30:11] Anyway. So she was cooking. And she spilled something. And she was so mad at herself. She started speaking passionately in her mother tongue. She never swore. But she was upset with herself. And my brother ran in and gave her a hug. And then I ran in and gave her a hug. She was so hard on herself for a moment. And then she started to cry.

[00:30:38] Because she realized that that's not the way she ever speaks to us. And we didn't want her speaking to herself. And I know it was before... It was... No, no. Sorry, sorry. It was before the season picked up. It was after Christmas. And it was the slow season. So she was trying to figure stuff out. Christmas is a good season. And then it really slows down in January.

[00:31:08] And yeah. She just had so many responsibilities as a single mother. As a single mother. This is why... This is a big reason. This is a big part of why we have this podcast. Because things could have been avoided. Right? And if we pour into our marriages, nobody has to walk through life alone like that. So anyway.

[00:31:38] The way we speak to ourselves. The way we respond to mistakes. That moment. Don't be so hard on yourself. The pressure we place on ourselves. And eventually, on the people we love. Many people listening today are not only healing for themselves anymore. They're not.

[00:32:07] They're healing for their children too. They're becoming more aware of the tone inside their homes. That's beautiful. More aware of the voice their children may one day carry inside themselves. And that awareness has the power to change generations. The legacy you leave behind.

[00:32:35] And sometimes healing begins with just learning how to speak to yourself. With some more compassion. Wisdom. Maybe it's patience you need. Or gentleness. Gentleness you would offer someone you deeply love. Speak to yourself like that. I remember saying that to my husband.

[00:33:03] I haven't said this to him for a while. But maybe it'll be good for the future if it ever comes up. Talk to me like I'm five. Don't get so angry. Speak to me like I'm five. I know our husbands have so much pressure. And sometimes they get this certain way. And we want to try to have compassion.

[00:33:31] Now I don't know what made me say it. But I said speak to me like I'm five. Like I'm a little girl. Speak to me like that. Sometimes healing looks like becoming the steady. This is a different. This is. Imagine this. The steady compassionate presence. You once needed yourself.

[00:34:01] Imagine being the person you needed. Speak to yourself like that. And speak to others. For many people, that kind of healing will feel almost like breathing fresh air. Fresh air emotionally for the first time in years. Once you step back and you realize these things, you can finally breathe. You can finally change.

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[00:35:53] What kind of internal voice do I speak to myself with most consistently? What does that internal voice sound like? Does my inner dialogue sound more like encouragement or criticism? What does it sound like for you?

[00:36:21] What messages about worth, success, maybe it's failure or identity? Did I internalize growing up? This is going to be powerful. Talk about it with your spouse.

[00:36:40] Are there areas where I've been performing for approval instead of living from genuine alignment and my God-given calling? Oof. This one might. Perhaps it may sting. It is good. Okay. I love you. I love you for doing this work.

[00:37:09] What kind of internal voice do I want my children to eventually develop about themselves? That one. Okay, friends, let's come together. Prayer partners, let's come together in prayer.

[00:37:33] Heavenly Father, help us become more aware of the words, tones, and emotional environments shaping our homes and our hearts. Teach us how to lead with wisdom, gentleness, emotional maturity, and grace. Encouragement instead of criticism.

[00:38:04] Guidance. And never, never, never, never humiliation. And for those carrying painful internal dialogue shaped through difficult experiences, please cover them with healing. Bring healing. Bring restoration.

[00:38:27] Help people separate their identity from fear, shame, any kind of pressure, any kind of performance, and any kind of emotional wounds. And help our homes become places where people grow in confidence. Truth.

[00:38:54] Let it become a place of emotional safety, wisdom, kindness, and love. The kind of love you have for us. In Jesus' name, amen.

[00:39:10] Listen, many spend years trying to understand why certain fears, insecurities, or pressures, or emotional reactions feel so automatic.

[00:39:37] Without realizing, many of those patterns were formed long before they even had language for what they were experiencing as children.

[00:39:48] So if this conversation brought clarity today, if you realized something, if you discovered something powerful, I really hope it also brought gentleness.

[00:40:08] Because sometimes the moment people finally recognize where certain patterns were formed, something, yes, yes. Something inside them, something inside them softens. And that's where healing often begins. Right there.

[00:40:38] In that moment. The voice children hear around them consistently eventually becomes part of the voice they carry within themselves. Remember that. That is why we do the work that we do. If this episode spoke to your heart, if it touched you, share it with someone who may need this conversation today.

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[00:42:03] Friends, may your home become a place where words build life. Where correction carries wisdom and where people inside grow secure in who God created them to be. God bless you all. Glory to God always. We love you. See you real soon. This is Becoming Unshakeable by the Entrepreneur Parent Podcast.

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